You might feel as if someone is hiding an important fact from you today, and you cannot put your finger on what’s missing. This could lead you into a state of mistrust, which will only cause others to retreat even further. This may be a delicate situation; your most intelligent strategy may be holding your fears silent for now until the uncertainty passes.
Saturday, September 22, 2007

Round
Like a circle in a spiral
Like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning
On an ever-spinning reel
Like a snowball down a mountain
Or a carnival balloon
Like a carousel thats turning
Running rings around the moon
Like a clock whose hands are sweeping
Past the minutes of its face
And the world is like an apple
Whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind

Like a tunnel that you follow
To a tunnel of its own
Down a hollow to a cavern
Where the sun has never shone
Like a door that keeps revolving
In a half-forgotten dream
Or the ripples from a pebble
Someone tosses in a stream
Like a clock whose hands are sweeping
Past the minutes of its face
And the world is like an apple
Whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind

Keys that jingle in your pocket
Words that jangle in your head
Why did summer go so quickly
Was it something that you said
Lovers walk along a shore
And leave their footprints in the sand
Is the sound of distant drumming
Just the fingers of your hand
Pictures hanging in a hallway
And the fragment of a song
Half-remembered names and faces
But to whom do they belong
When you knew that it was over
You were suddenly aware
That the autumn leaves were turning
To the colour of her hair

Like a circle in a spiral
Like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning
On an ever-spinning reel
As the images unwind
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind

When I fall in love I become so sensitive and also so feeble creature

I magnify each single reaction, think for hours about what does she mean about this word or that comment maybe I can find out the answer of the ultimate question… Does She Love Me as I do???!

And I always come out with 10s of results’ scenarios… which make me more and more confused!!

In one hour my brain could take me to happiness because of a nice word I remembered that she said then to sadness because of another disappointing word she also said and after that to worries because of some reaction she totally ignored me in; which indicates that I’m not even one of her interests. That’s what I call Torture!!!

Thinking, thinking and thinking again in the same issue make me start feeling that my mind is burning because of abusing it… So it’s too hard to stay in that phase longer time.

While she maybe has no idea about the emotional roller coaster I’m going up and down in at all I become so mad at her… logically there is no reason for that… she didn’t make anything wrong!!, but that’s because I feel that she is the reason for all my current sufferings…

All of that drives me to start taking quick decisions… maybe I can find some end for that pain…

-  I WILL NEVER EVER TALK TO HER AGAIN UNTIL SHE STARTS TREATING ME BETTER!!

Then I realize that she didn’t make anything wrong to act that way. But the problem is still persisting, I still need a decision!!!

- Ok… let’s forget about the whole story… She is not mine! I should give it up

But that’s not comfortable solution at all for someone really in love… It may make me feel better for short time only… I need some sort of compromise between your brain and you heart!

- Hmm let’s forget the past… I will talk to her like nothing happened at all, and let’s wait for another sign; hopefully it’s the turn of the Good Sign to pop up!

What will come next?! Will it be the good sign as I hope or another disappointment??!