When I fall in love I become so sensitive and also so feeble creature

I magnify each single reaction, think for hours about what does she mean about this word or that comment maybe I can find out the answer of the ultimate question… Does She Love Me as I do???!

And I always come out with 10s of results’ scenarios… which make me more and more confused!!

In one hour my brain could take me to happiness because of a nice word I remembered that she said then to sadness because of another disappointing word she also said and after that to worries because of some reaction she totally ignored me in; which indicates that I’m not even one of her interests. That’s what I call Torture!!!

Thinking, thinking and thinking again in the same issue make me start feeling that my mind is burning because of abusing it… So it’s too hard to stay in that phase longer time.

While she maybe has no idea about the emotional roller coaster I’m going up and down in at all I become so mad at her… logically there is no reason for that… she didn’t make anything wrong!!, but that’s because I feel that she is the reason for all my current sufferings…

All of that drives me to start taking quick decisions… maybe I can find some end for that pain…

-  I WILL NEVER EVER TALK TO HER AGAIN UNTIL SHE STARTS TREATING ME BETTER!!

Then I realize that she didn’t make anything wrong to act that way. But the problem is still persisting, I still need a decision!!!

- Ok… let’s forget about the whole story… She is not mine! I should give it up

But that’s not comfortable solution at all for someone really in love… It may make me feel better for short time only… I need some sort of compromise between your brain and you heart!

- Hmm let’s forget the past… I will talk to her like nothing happened at all, and let’s wait for another sign; hopefully it’s the turn of the Good Sign to pop up!

What will come next?! Will it be the good sign as I hope or another disappointment??!